📝 Summary of Field Notes Friday #3
In this week’s Field Notes Friday, I continue the conversation about self-trust and agency by reflecting more on the internal push-pull so many AuDHDers experience.
I look at how the differing needs of autism and ADHD can create internal tension—especially around things like routine, attention, stimulation, and social energy.
One of the central metaphors I explore comes from my childhood experience of swimming pools (I’ll share a longer essay on this later this weekend). It’s through that metaphor that I introduce the idea of Defensive Monotropic Mode — those times when deep focus becomes less about interest and more about escaping the overwhelm of life …
Themes Explored ….
🔁 Push-Pull of Routine vs. Novelty
Craving structure (autism) vs. chasing stimulation (ADHD)
→ “I want everything to stay the same… and also change everything.”🧱 Difficulty Building Routine
Autistic need for predictability + ADHD difficulty with consistency = constant tension.🎯 Atte…